The last dreamwalker died? Harrowheart's brow twitches as memories of Isidor's conversation with him creep to the front of his mind. The things her brother had been chased by, the torment he couldn't escape. It must be no great confidence to Lieselotte to see him looking so uncertain, so worried.
And yet when she poses that final question he nods curtly with great surety.
"I'd say I'd kill for them, but that wouldn't mean much." He doesn't elaborate; Lieselotte must understand.
"I'd say I'd follow them anywhere they need me, but I can't dream, so I can't keep your son safe there."
In the following silence he stops to think. Not to think about what he has to say, because he knows that. Rather, he spends his time organizing his words and his thoughts, because he can't afford to misspeak here.
"When I was alive, I didn't have a future to look forward to. I didn't have any children, or any legacies, or any dreams. I didn't have friends or lovers to keep me goin'. My life didn't have much of a purpose. So when my time came to go, I wasn't afraid. Things were over for me, and I accepted that."
"When I died, I never expected I'd be facin' a future of livin' forever. Feelin' emotions without anyone to share 'em with. I was... Very lonely for years. Even after I rejoined my family, I didn't have a reason to see tomorrow."
He smiles then, hopeful for what he's about to say and yet guilty for everything he's already told her. "But then I met your son and daughter. And I didn't like 'em much that first time we met, but now... Now I got a good reason to look forward to every new day. They give me somethin' I never had in life. I'm grateful beyond words that I met your children, Mrs. Durant."
His slight smile fades away then. Quietly he concludes, "But I know they're mortal, and I'm not. They and I could be friends their entire lives, but one day they'll die and I'll... Still be here. And I don't like that idea, Mrs. Durant. I don't wanna go into a future without the people who mean so much to me. I don't wanna go back to the loneliness I used to know. So I can say with all confidence that if it came right down to it? I'd die for 'em, too."
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Date: 2017-07-27 02:40 pm (UTC)And yet when she poses that final question he nods curtly with great surety.
"I'd say I'd kill for them, but that wouldn't mean much." He doesn't elaborate; Lieselotte must understand.
"I'd say I'd follow them anywhere they need me, but I can't dream, so I can't keep your son safe there."
In the following silence he stops to think. Not to think about what he has to say, because he knows that. Rather, he spends his time organizing his words and his thoughts, because he can't afford to misspeak here.
"When I was alive, I didn't have a future to look forward to. I didn't have any children, or any legacies, or any dreams. I didn't have friends or lovers to keep me goin'. My life didn't have much of a purpose. So when my time came to go, I wasn't afraid. Things were over for me, and I accepted that."
"When I died, I never expected I'd be facin' a future of livin' forever. Feelin' emotions without anyone to share 'em with. I was... Very lonely for years. Even after I rejoined my family, I didn't have a reason to see tomorrow."
He smiles then, hopeful for what he's about to say and yet guilty for everything he's already told her. "But then I met your son and daughter. And I didn't like 'em much that first time we met, but now... Now I got a good reason to look forward to every new day. They give me somethin' I never had in life. I'm grateful beyond words that I met your children, Mrs. Durant."
His slight smile fades away then. Quietly he concludes, "But I know they're mortal, and I'm not. They and I could be friends their entire lives, but one day they'll die and I'll... Still be here. And I don't like that idea, Mrs. Durant. I don't wanna go into a future without the people who mean so much to me. I don't wanna go back to the loneliness I used to know. So I can say with all confidence that if it came right down to it? I'd die for 'em, too."